I am a flaming homosexual for Kurosawa Dia

ahem Some backstory here, I'm a heavily straight woman. I grew up liking men, blah blah blah. I kind of disliked it because in reality I really wanted to appreciate women (thus far I have come to terms with my pansexuality) but for some reason I just couldn't. e: For perspective on this (since I realized this entire paragraph makes almost no sense), I grew up kind of homophobic as a child lmao.

Kurosawa Dia honestly helped me come to terms with my sexuality???

And let me just say.... This was a huge surprise to me considering that when I first saw the character designs (pre-anime) I really disliked Dia. Like. She was ranked 9 on my Aqours list.

And yet....

There's so many things she's done for me in the past year and a half since I met her. Not only was she the very first female character (or honestly female ever) that has ever made my heart beat quickly, but she's helped me with my depression.

I had such bad depression and anxiety in high school that I dropped out in 11th grade, and in the past 3? years since that happened I've gone through a decent amount I'd say, and Dia's been there through I'd personally say the worst of it. I've had up's and downs but every time I have a down, I think to myself, "You can't hurt yourself. Make a mental list of all the things you love," and would continue to list my sister, my cat, Dia, etc.

That's also a whole other thing. My sister. I'm getting a little close to home here so I'll apologize for being like this on a public site but, I don't have a good family life. It's ripe with neglect. But my sister. My older sister.... I love and admire her so much and she's a good reason I'm still alive today. She's practically a mother to me. More than my own mother is.

I love Dia for being another big sister to me, and helping me through the times where I think of hurting myself. She motivates me to take another step forward every day.

I'm so sorry baby girl, I wish I could do so much more to celebrate your birthday, but alas I can't draw/sing/be creative for shit. Please take this appreciation post instead <3

Dia

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edit: one of my best friends made a Danganronpa style drawing of Dia and told me to to add it to my post, she's amazing :')) http://schoolido.lu/user/Darling/

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edit2: she also gave me permission to post her very beautiful smug Dia icon edit, I love it so much<3

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edit3: i completely for about this before, but if you're interested, you should go check out my quest for Job Dia from June :') http://schoolido.lu/activities/6180734/