Jan. 29, 2023, 2:46 a.m.


(The following is a letter to Dia)

Dia Kurosawa,

I apologize in advance if this sounds awkward and cringey, but since I haven't had time to come up with a more flowery piece of writing, I figured I'd just express my raw feelings in this letter.

I'm really glad the world introduced me to you, Dia. I wasn't always crazy about your personality or your appearance or even anything else about you. But once I got the chance to see why you act the way you do and just what makes you who you are in general, that started to change. I know how it feels to have trouble being casual with friends, even friends I spend a lot of time with, and I know how it feels to default to a strict/authoritative mode at certain moments. Seeing you grapple with the same kind of thing made me appreciate you a lot more. I could start telling people "Dia is awesome," and other things like that. But it didn't stop there.

I'm not sure exactly what changed, or even when or how it changed, but things somehow got to a point where I couldn't go very long without thinking about you. I got to a point where I started thinking that you were beautiful (I still think that, of course). It's honestly a little awkward because I've never thought a girl was beautiful before; "pretty," sure, but never "beautiful." And as long as I'm spilling my guts here, not only are you the first girl I've ever considered beautiful, you're the first person to make me feel like I might legitimately be in love. I know that might be a bit much for a relationship that can only ever be one-sided, but that's how I feel.

I could go on and on about so many other things, like how your eyes always draw me in or how I find your personality so charming, but I think I've said about enough. I know I can never really be with you, but I hope that someday, or even in another life, I can meet someone like you. Until then, I hope you aren't too weirded out by my one-sided affection.

Thank you, Dia, for being a part of my life, even in such an indirect way.

I love you.

  • RisingSon